Father Finds Daughter’s Body, Suicide Note Reveals Uncle’…

Back in may 2021 I walked into my 17 year old daughter’s room to wake her up for school because she was late and I found her hanging from the ceiling. It was just me and her it’s always just been me and her, her mom was never in the picture, she was my whole life and my only reason to continue on living and working for.

She left a suicide note to me, she kept apologising to me for this but she said she couldn’t do this anymore, she said her uncle my own brother had touched and assaulted her multiple times over the years and he even once let one of his friends assault her too, she said she couldn’t live with the guilt and shame. Every other sentence she kept apologising to me and saying that she loves me and that she’s sorry.

As soon as the police and ambulance left with her body I went to his house and I’ve never beaten anyone harder than I’ve beaten him, I almost killed him right there. I showed my family the note and everyone shunned him, my dad beat him even worse than me. I went to the police about it with the suicide note and he admitted to everything and he was sentenced to prison for 14 years which I think is unfair and way too low.

At her funeral I couldn’t even stand on my two feet, 3 of my friends had to carry me around especially when they opened her casket, she looked so beautiful like she always did but this time she was dead, it’s a pain that I don’t wish on anybody to see your own little girl inside her own casket.

I feel fucking pathetic that I couldn’t protect her, I feel fucking horrible that she thought I wouldn’t protect her if I had known, I now even resent her a little because she decided it was better to end her life than to come to me, I’d have moved mountains to help her, I’d have happily given up my entire life for her. She was the only reason I was alive man.

I’ve sold our house and moved away to a different city since then, all I saw in that house after that was her hanging body, that image didn’t leave me alone in that house, it’s still there but I’ve been in therapy for a few years now and I’m in a support group for parents of kids who have taken their own lives. It doesn’t erase anything it just makes it a bit easier to live with and get back to your “normal” life, I’ve even started dating a fellow member of our support group who lost her son the same way, my daughter always wanted me to get out there and date because she didn’t want me staying alone forever so I think she’d love this for me.

Writing it out and talking about her with others was suggested to me and that it would be good to keep talking about her and what happened to get it out which is why I’m here, I know Reddit isn’t the best place for that but I’ve been on here for years and I like it, this is just a throwaway account because my main one is mainly about my business.