My girlfriend is 14 weeks pregnant. It was definitely an accident.We’re both 20 yo. We’re in college and have only been dating for 8 months. Let’s be real, we messed up.

I told her I’d support whatever she decided and I meant that even though it scared me. Internally I kind of freaked out when she said she wanted to keep the baby. I’ve been trying to mentally accept that I’m going to be a dad and I still can’t really wrap my head around it. I love her and I want to be a good dad. I just honestly have no idea what I’m doing. My parents are pissed and think I’m ruining my life.

She had an ultrasound a few weeks ago. I went with her and when I saw the baby I was surprised by the sudden rush of happiness I felt. Like genuinely happy. It was this rush mixed with absolute panic because it suddenly felt real. Before that, part of me was quietly hoping there wasn’t actually a baby and it was all some mistake. I didn’t think I’d be mad at all if there was just nothing on the screen at all.

Everything looked normal on the ultrasound, but they found a spot on the baby’s heart. The doctor said it can be nothing and sometimes disappears, but it can also be a marker for things like Down syndrome. The moment she said that I just felt a giant knot form in my stomach.

The doctor said sometimes those spots mean nothing and since my girlfriend is so young that chances were probably still pretty good that everything was fine with the baby. She recommended  blood test to screen for Down syndrome and other things. Yesterday we got the results that there’s a high risk of trisomy 21 aka Down syndrome. It said the risk was 84%. I don’t really get exactly how that percentage is figured out. Everything else was low risk. The baby is a boy.

There’s another test we can do pretty much confirm one way or another. My girlfriend doesn’t know if she wants to do it yet. She’s completely overwhelmed, which I get since it’s barely been 12 since we found out. She basically shut down emotionally and didn’t want to talk about it anymore.

I feel like I’m drowning. I was already terrified about having a baby at all. We aren’t prepared for a perfectly healthy kid, let alone one who may have serious medical needs. I was still in the process of convincing myself we could do this. I keep reading that Down syndrome isn’t just developmental. It can come with heart problems and lifelong health issues.

I don’t know what I feel. Part of me wants to be strong and supportive no matter what. Another part of me is scared out of my mind and wondering how we’re ever going to handle this. It just feels impossible to me. I’m not prepared to handle all of this. I feel like I shouldn’t even be allowed to be responsible for somebody else, let alone somebody with special needs and health issues.

I understand that she’s overwhelmed, but her behavior toward me has changed in ways I don’t know how to respond to.

She barely talks to me now unless it’s about something practical. If I ask how she’s feeling, she says she doesn’t want to talk about it or changes the subject. She’s spending way more time alone, scrolling on her phone or watching videos with headphones in. When I try to be there for her physically, like sitting with her or checking in, she feels distant and uncomfortable, almost like she doesn’t want me around.

What’s confusing is that she still expects me to be supportive, but I don’t know what that means when she won’t communicate with me at all. I feel like I’m walking on eggshells. I don’t want to push her when she’s clearly struggling, but I also feel shut out and useless.

At the same time, I’m dealing with my own fear. I was already scared about becoming a parent at our age, and now I’m panicking internally about finances, school, and whether I’m capable of handling everything that might come with this.

I don’t know if I should keep giving her space, even though it feels like she’s pulling away from me, or if I should push for a real conversation even if it upsets her in the short term.

How do you support somebody who shuts you out during a crisis? At what point does giving space turn into avoiding the problem?