I am a nurse with a masters degree. I’m a doctoral student. I’m a new wife to an immigrant. With a lot of Americans right now, I’ve been outraged about the issues happening in the world right now. This post isn’t all about politics; don’t worry. This is to give an essence of who I am.

My brother’s fiancé was the maid of honor at my wedding. They’ve been together for about four years I think. They live in a diff state together. She has been my friend and we’ve gotten along great, but I know that she has different political views. I try to avoid talking too much about politics with my family who I KNOW have different views to avoid getting into big arguments that will cause irreparable damage to relationships. Idk if that’s right or wrong, but it’s the way I’ve operated due to most of them being hard core conservative. I’ve shared some social media posts lately. Apparently, my soon to be sis in law has an issue with that. She texted me and said that she disagrees with my post and other things about immigration and deportation. I told her that we have different world views and that she’s speaking on something she can never understand as I have my immigrant husband who I’ve watched go through the struggles of going through immigration process. I told her that for the sake of our relationship, I’d prefer not to discuss it further. She then said some more things that came off very, very entitled such as “I applaud them for doing things the right way”, etc. I didn’t need her applause. I left her on read and wanted to cool down considering i am supposed to be her maid of honor and do not want any escalation of the issue. A few days later, she sent me Airbnbs for her bachelorette as if nothing had happened. I didn’t answer for a few days because I wasn’t ready and I was working 12 hr shifts. I also just didn’t know how I wanted to approach the situation. She texted me she missed me and I said I miss you too a day or two later. She then proceeded to send me an extremely long text bringing the issue back up, saying “I’m going to marry your brother so ball is in your court” and “we can either move past this or end our relationship here”. It all felt like a lot considering we ended the conversation and nothing else was said besides Airbnbs being sent and I miss you texts being exchanged.

I typed up a few messages & nothing felt right, so I asked her to call me to talk. I do not want to argue over text with anyone. It’s not my style. I think I’m past that stage in life.

We talked on the phone & she immediately had a very aggressive and angry tone. I asked her if we are going to have a productive conversation to please approach this less angrily. I am still confused at this point because she had been texting me Airbnbs and sent me an I miss you text. I didn’t think she was this angry. I began to explain that I wouldn’t go out of my way to text someone about something they posted on Facebook if I know we have different political views and that if something came up in person or naturally during conversation, it’s different. I told her I didn’t know what her intention was with texting me to disagree. I also brought up a previous situation that happened about 8 months ago. Her, me, and my best friend were out together one night when she got extremely drunk and began arguing w my brother in the club (over the phone) so we walked out to leave. We were waiting for my brother to pick us up when a black man comes up to us to flirt. I’m used to this. I live in a predominantly black area. I grew up in diverse communities, go to diverse schools, and work in diverse environments. I’m usually flattered if men come up to flirt. Not an issue. She tells him to go away and I’m just laughing it off like “we’re good, thank you!” She then says get away from us you n word (hard r)… yeah…. I know. I end up profusely apologizing and literally walking away from her. If she’s gonna get jumped for this she deserves it and I’m not sticking around to get jumped with her. My best friend grabs her up and profusely apologized to the guy and they meet me up the street where my brother is picking us up. I told my brother what she did and he was like I’ll talk to her in the morning since she was so drunk. I told her a week later that it was 100% not okay and to never do anything like that again. She apologized and said she was overly drunk and super embarrassed.

I should’ve cut her off there but I think I was quite frankly in shock and convinced myself that she was too drunk(?) looking back… absolutely not.

So back to current time. I brought that up & said that she tends to act extremely entitled & that this is the second thing she’s said that has really disturbed me. She got extremely angry that I am “using something that happened before to strengthen my argument”… she completely refused to acknowledge what I was saying and kept saying she’s “not racist”.

I mean…. quite literally said and did racist things; something I have never encountered in my life or even thought I would encounter.

To keep the rest short, she said that I was just trying to push her away and need someone to be mad at instead of acknowledging her racist behavior. I had a situation happen with a friend recently that really hurt me and my soon to be sis in law helped me through that situation and agreed my friend was wrong & was there for me. During this phone call, after she said that I was bringing up her past (the n word situation), she said that she is going to bring up mine, too and said “you need someone to be mad at and be angry with. First it was \_\_\_ (my old friend) and now it’s me”.

I am genuinely stunned by the way she has handled the situation and treated me. She ignored her behavior, used an old situation to get back at me (basically doing a tit for tat) instead of having a mature convo where she can admit her faults and apologize. I am tired of people who cannot be accountable.

This is the first argument we’ve ever had. I am worried for my brother. I do not want him to be with such a vindictive and mean person. I also don’t want my feelings about her to get in the way of things. Clearly her and I have fundamental differences, but it’s more than that. It’s the fact she used a situation that she HELPED me through in attempt to hurt me and get one over on me. Instead of a convo, she yelled at me & cursed at me (she yelled fuck you and hung up at the end of the call)… I am beyond disgusted and disappointed. I sent her a text saying I am no longer her maid of honor due to her behavior and that I will no longer be involved or participate in any of her pre wedding activities. I will be there for my brother but that’s all.

I am supposed to talk on the phone with my brother later. I’m nervous, sad, angry, disappointed. Idk what to do if he tolerates her behavior. Him and I have always been extremely close. I never told anyone about that night besides my brother. I obviously don’t want her in my life at all. She’s stubborn, mean, immature, etc. I can attribute this to her only being 21, but I think my brother will make a ginormous mistake marrying her.

UPDATE!

First and foremost, I would like to say that I am sorry for being complacent when she said the n word to someone in public. The behavior was disgusting. It was something I’d never seen before. You hear about it on social media. You talked to black people or any one of color who has these experiences. I literally never thought I’d experience that in real life. I told her that it was not okay and to never say/do something like that again. That WAS NOT enough. Her and my brother convinced me that she was too drunk to know what she was saying and that she was extremely embarrassed and ashamed. I think I was so shocked, and these people are my literal family members, that I wanted that so badly to be true. I never forgot that situation. I never went out with her again, only saw her in group settings, but to tell you the truth, I avoided it. I was avoidant because it was so shocking and also traumatic for me. She traumatized me. I can only imagine how she affected the man she sad it to. There were a group of men there who overheard it and began walking up to us shouting “what did she say?!” Rightfully so. I will never allow someone in my surroundings or life who acts so blatantly racist EVER again. I will never be complacent again. I will never ever avoid or tolerate this behavior to preserve their peace again. Regardless of who it is. I’ve grown and learned so much over the past few years because of the state of the world now and I am learning that silence is just as bad.

I told my older sister who has a black husband and mixed children. She will no longer talk to her or be in attendance for wedding activities.

I talked to my brother on the phone today. Those who said he already knows who she is and/or in denial are right. He said “how would you feel if someone brought up something you said or did when you were drunk?” And “so what if she said she applauds (my husbands) family? What if she really meant it that way?”

They don’t understand. He doesn’t understand. I tried to explain some more and I explained that she has said many hurtful and entitled things apart from that situation and that I’m not going to talk to her anymore due to her behavior in all areas. He said we’re both crazy for letting this come between us and that we should be able to talk about political opinions without this. I still have hope that he will recognize her true colors, racism & all. She is the one who pushed this wedding. He kept disagreeing and said he wanted to do it later. She forced the issue. They chose and un-chose wedding dates many times. I also have to come to terms with the fact that my brother and I have chosen different paths for ourselves. I’ll continue to grow, advocate, change, and learn.

I read every single comment. Thank you. I’ll update if anything else happens.