I 55F come from a very wealthy family, both my parents were doctors, both my brothers are lawyers and one of them owns the biggest law firm in our entire country and has been the president of the lawyers committee 3 different times in our country, and my oldest sister is an oncologist. I was the youngest of the family.

I married really young at 20 because I was in love, at the time I was in med school but I dropped out to become a stay at home wife to my husband who was a car mechanic who had his own workshop, he was 5 years older and I was head over heels in love with him, my parents and siblings hated him, they said I had more potential than to just be someone’s stay at home wife and they hated him because they didn’t think he was worthy to be in our family, I refused and I fought them a lot over it, they ended up disowning me when we got married and I thought I was happier without them and for years I was, we all lived in a small town even though my family were all rich they just loved the quietness, and for years and years we didn’t speak even though they all lived a couple of minutes down the street from me.

We had 4 kids together 3 daughters and our youngest son and we were happy, he was always good to me and even though we weren’t rich we had enough. about 13 years ago however he was in a really bad work accident and he became partially disabled and couldn’t work anymore, and soon after the shop closed down because we couldn’t figure it out, I never worked in my life and never continued my education so I was stuck, my oldest brother came and offered me a job at his law firm as a secretary even though we haven’t talked in decades and I accepted, the pay wasn’t all that much and he treated me no different than he would any other regular employee, he wasn’t interested in getting to rekindle a relationship with me or get to know my family, but I was still grateful for his help nonetheless. Around that time both of my parents passed away a few months between each other and I was completely left out of their will.

It’s been years now and I’m still working for my brother and my daughters have all put themselves in colleges and they’re all doctors in residency and I’m proud of all of them, my son went to trade school and is a mechanic like his dad and my family still don’t talk to me. And I honestly regret it so much, these past few years I’ve lived through hell, my husband passed away 4 years ago and I’ve gone without too multiple times trying to help my kids have a better life than me, I love my kids and I really loved my husband who always loved me till the end but at the same time I regret dropping out of school, I hate that I didn’t listen to my parents and family, and I miss how things used to be, I stalk my siblings on facebook and they’re all living happy lives with their children and grandchildren and here I am worrying about bills and wether I could eat for the rest of the month or not. Last month my oldest brother who I work for bought a brand new Lexus suv like it’s nothing, like brand new with the seat covers still on like it’s nothing while I’m driving a 16 year old Renault.

I regret all of it so much.