Therapist Told Me Be 100% Honest, Regretted It Immediately

Ive been seeing this psychologist for a while now, nothing extreme, no horror story, just regular therapy stuff. Talking about feelings, habits, patterns, coping, all that. One thing he kept repeating almost every single session was that therapy only works if Im fully honest and dont filter myself at all. Like he really pushed it. His exact words were something like “say whatever comes to your mind, even if it feels awkward or rude, this is a safe space”. He said it so often it basically became a rule.

So at some point I decided ok, lets actually do that for real. No softening, no polite wording, no thinking how it sounds. When he asked how I felt about therapy lately, I answered honestly. I said that sometimes it feels very repetetive, that some questions sound scripted, and that I ocasionaly feel like Im talking to a process instead of a real person. I also mentioned that some of his reactions feel a bit forced or rehearsed. I wasnt yelling, wasnt trying to be mean, just saying it exactly how it popped into my head. The vibe in the room changed really fast. He got visibly tense, started shifting in his chair, and suddenly honesty wasnt the goal anymore. He told me that not every thought needs to be shared, that its important to stay respectful, and that what I said could be a form of resistance or projection. Which honestly confused me, because like five minutes earlier he was pushing the whole no filter thing super hard.

We ended up spending the rest of the session talking about why I felt the need to say those things, instead of actually adressing what I said. I walked out feeling weirdly guilty and uncomfortable, even though I literally did exactly what he asked me to do. Now Im sitting here wondering if this counts as malicious compliance at all, or if Im just really bad at therapy.